Testimonials

Testimonials

Testimonials

"Mommy has a lot of new room in her heart for me” - that’s what my children said at first when I started attending Sod Ha’adam Courses. 

B. Y.

Yerushalayim

The course gave me clarity and perspectives which enabled me to prioritize and set goals in life. I went from robotically carrying out my day-to-day tasks to actually enjoying to accomplish them! I always loved my children; today, I also truly admire them. I have mastered the ability to live in the moment.

P.Y.

Zurich

Sod Ha’adam reached my neshama in a way I never yet experienced.  I feel like Hashem has lifted me up, past all my blockages.

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In the beginning I had no patience for myself - I knew myself through how I perceived other’s viewed me –like I was never enough - to be needy, feely, draggy, annoying, burdening, and volatile - I didn’t really want to associate with me. Sod Ha’adam made peace between me and myself. We needed counseling to get along. I had scorned me for so long. I didn’t trust me. But this is where life occurs, running away from this meeting point is literally missing the point.

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My husband – and marriage – needed a big boost. Having just heard and been awed by Yesod Ha’adam, I figured I’d try out one of its teachings. To my utter astonishment, not only did some of the desired results quickly begin to materialize, but after the first week or two, my husband commented, ‘I don’t know why, but for the first time in years I no longer seem to need a midday nap.

G.W.

Bnei Barak

For those 24 life-altering weeks, Sod Ha’adam held my hand and opened new worlds, and I worked to integrate new, core concepts. Over time, I shifted to a place of light, of peace, of true acceptance, of deep connection. And in a deeply hidden part of me, I knew I was experiencing truth.  

G.M.

Lakewood

Just my Personal Experience

The friend who got me to attend this course was wrong. It is not a nice enhancement to life.  It’s a life-changer.

I was the all-over-the-place, emotionally-suppressed kid, way too creative for our perfect, cookie-cutter society. And I learned - way too fast - that to be loved, accepted – to be acknowledged as an existing human being - I had better just do it right. That was my subconscious mode of survival: do it right. I learned three trillion make-up artist techniques on how to best cover-up that out-of-control inside and just perform up to par. The results were good. My name had a ton of friends; my resume got the right shidduch. I'm in.

But feelings don’t lie, and the predominant feeling of my life was of walking on thin air. Insecure. Anxious. Instability plagued my insides. I felt like a misshapen human who had these defective innards that didn’t stop experiencing roiling, broiling feelings. And everyone around me seemed so composed. I delved deeper and harder into spiritual stuff to try and reinforce the image I was trying to uphold, twisting myself into an even tighter “right” pretzel, to get that 'right' feeling – of having made it. I was running myself ragged; as a yid, mother, wife, daughter, and friend… On each front, I learned the tough art of pleasing others. And even though my show was pretty close to the perfect, I was never sure of myself.

Why? Something screamed inside me. Why do I feel half like a circus actor - and half like a broken-legged worm? I felt hated, like no one really understood me, like I had no real worth. I could quote all lessons about my inherent value, my uniqueness, my good fortune to be a yid - a bas melech no less, my specialty, my endless capacity as a chelek elokai mima'al -  but oh, how frightening, to never truly experience it.

The rest of my story - the way such an existence manifests itself on one’s marriage, children, finances – I’ll leave that to your imagination. On a primal level I was struggling to build a home whose foundations, were shaky, crumbling. Boy, was I overworking endlessly - not breathing, because I was too busy putting up one thing before the next thing fell.

When Sod Ha'adam was recommended, it seemed to offer beautiful ideas that would enhance my life of function. With time I started to identify that something is occurring inside of me on a level way deeper than enhancement and function. I experienced an intrinsic shift on an existential level.

Sod Ha’adam touched my yesod - the essential core, the part of my existence I had always subconsciously been running away from. The ultimate, most intimate place inside of me. The part I always thought only I had, only I knew about. The me I’d meet at 3AM when my whole house and the whole world was sleeping and I was alone, alone, alone, with my thoughts and rawest feelings. That’s the me I made sure to quickly forget about the next morning when I had to function, function, function to meet all the demands of society and life and what I thought was Torah.

I had had no one in my life safe enough, and present enough for me to be. Then, Reb. Tukechinsky gave me real space – and clarified that from this hidden part all of life begins. This is the source, the foundation, and everything else is the result of that. Because at best, my me hadn’t been acknowledged, and at worst - criticized and openly rejected. And me always hid in a corner of my heart, unsure even of its existence. But it was there. Waiting for me to find myself. To really start living.

Wow! To understand that the process towards avodas Hashem starts with meeting 'me'. There are dark places in there – sure there are! But dark isn’t ugly – dark is potential for light.  Dark was Divinely designed for process. Arrival, perfection - those are mythical goals. Hashem had so many angels but He desired us – faulty, imperfect, creatures-on-a-journey-and-in-a-process. If I cover my crevices with bridges, I have defeated the purpose of these lacks.

In the process of Sod Ha’adam work, I tried to make the time to shine my focus on me, to build a relationship with my magnificent me, and to sustain it – loving, accepting, staying loyal to my wonderful me in rocky moments. And even when I couldn’t, just being in the course on a weekly basis introduced my awareness to me's existence. Every shiur provided another angle for me to get to know and appreciate my core. To be introduced to me, to date me, to eventually become one with me and commit to never abandon or scorn me again…

In the beginning I had no patience for myself - I knew myself through how I perceived other’s viewed me –like I was never enough - to be needy, feely, draggy, annoying, burdening, and volatile - I didn’t really want to associate with me. Sod Ha’adam made peace between me and myself. We needed counseling to get along. I had scorned me for so long. I didn’t trust me. But this is where life occurs, running away from this meeting point is literally missing the point.

Have you ever tried to use Waze but the GPS can’t locate you? They could show you the route, but can’t tell you where your car is on that route so it helps you very little. Sod Ha’adam helped me find myself. And the drive from here has lead me to a life of happiness, closeness and peace. I am a Yid now. A wife, a mother; I am home. I am me.

Sod Ha’adam brought me back to life. And oh, the awesome transformations that followed.

The Light in Life

I’ve been listening to shiurim all my life. I was always working on bettering myself. And yet.

I studied the meaning of,   - ואהבת לרעך כמוך" To love my friend as I love myself.” But I didn’t truly love myself. I didn’t even know who myself was.

There were always harsh voices  – some of which I wasn’t fully aware yet - inside of me.  “You should’ve done better, more.” “You’re not capable, not enough.” “Why can’t you be like everyone else?” “Hashem expects more from you.”  And they robbed me of myself. They made me give - but from a deflated heart and critical view.  I longed for peace of mind, for gladness of heart; to be, to give, with the ultimate richness of a wife and mother, with the ultimate light of my self.  

Sod Ha’adam has taken me on a journey of self-discovery – in the deepest, truest way, that of Torah, of authentic yiddishkeit. I came to recognize that the loftiest avodah was a level of self-awareness where I can celebrate my greatness and worthiness, where I can embrace the magnificence of my emotions and vulnerabilities, where I can own myself, my successes, my failings.

I saw myself, became one with myself. My awesome light, surging joy, deep ahava, vibrant ratzon.

By internalizing the lessons, integrating the practical tools, a new foundation was laid. And from the bottom up, my whole life was transformed.

I began to view myself  in a new light and only then was I able project it unto those around me. All my relationships have begun to thrive after my inner shift towards unconditional respect and positivity.   I have gained a new level of connection with my husband. My son who struggled in his learning had me consumed by worry, and as I shifted from the spiral of negativity to a  place of awe and true awareness of his being – he has unbelievably - made tremendous strides b”H. I cherish the new concept that each person’s biggest weakness is essentially their greatest strength – and bs”d I can help the transformation be achieved.

Sod Ha’adam reached my neshama in a way I never yet experienced.  I feel like Hashem has lifted me up, past all my blockages. I have learned to connect with Hashem for the very first time on a whole new level. Experience a level of emunah, of comfort and hope, or courage and security.

I’d been sitting, stepping on my crown for too long. Now I wear it. I am alive.

I feel more free now. My world is filled with light. It feels like a spark of Geulah.